I built my house on sand
Hoping it would stand
The storms that come my way
And now Iβm left to face
The weight of my mistakes
And a chance to start again
Ohhh Build my life again !
Ohhh Build my life again !
β Nothing More
Con' Convict You snowflake.
My usual time to go out is in early mornings, before sun wakes up.
This time, I've decided to take in some nightly air.
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Heavy vest equipped, boots strapped, hood pulled on head, on we go.
I went my way, past few houses, going into more secluded area.
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I saw figure of a man in distance, saw item in his hand..
Battle Mode Ready
I will pass him, if he would like to dance, dance we shall.
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We pass each but, it felt weird, no danger - just weird.
He walks behind me now, silence is broken by β
" Hey buddy..''
I turn to face him, he kept his distance - smart - he understands rules of engagement.
I go closer to him, arms reach, sending clear signal - Be direct with words, don't waste time - To him.
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He looks at my face - " Do you remember me ? ''
His question got me curious, looking at his face in silence, familiar shape, lines.
" Who are you " β I asked.
" Peter "
" Peter who ? " his last name did not ring a bell.
" We used to train, fight together.. at Kick Boxing - You remember ? "
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I tilted my head like animal, one side, slowly other side intently looking at him.
I touch his shoulder with my hand, his frame is athletic, muscular but.. feels soft, weak.. ??
I see.. He is broken inside, his emotions weigh him down.
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You've changed - I begin - Yet, you have remained the same, you have grown your frame.
Thousands reps huh ? His eyes widen surprised that, I can read it from his body.
Yes - He agreed.
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Peter : I still remember how heavy your kicks are.
Wrr : I still remember how cautious I had to be, not too get knocked out by kid smaller than me -
Thinking I was smallest in world.
Sharing laugh
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Wrr : How long ago was it.. 23.. 25 years.
P : Yeah, something like that.
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I could see that he tries to remain neutral.
Wrr : What are you doing on my street tonight ?
I say that looking for an item I saw from distance, he have beer can in his pocket.
What do you do these days Peter ?
P : I just left prison..
Wrr : Crime ?
P : Beating
Wrr : Beating ?
P : Yes.
Wrr : Hahaha, I think we had enough of that for years, we are familiar with that, we know responsibility in this act, nature of it.
Uncomfortable pause for him.
I turn him opposite way that he was going, pointing him towards my way - wink wink.
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Wrr : Come. I don't have time to waste Peter - One chance - I add.
Peter looks ashamed what he have done to this point, he starts to walk my way.
Wrr : We will walk during my training. SPEAK.
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Peter told me his story, last 20 years, light and medium drugs, alcohol, being in bad company for years.
Tense situations, being framed by those friends of his.
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Wrr : I see. Seems like my kicks were keeping you in line, and when we separated - You fell.
Peter nodded.
Wrr : What now ?
P : New case is due next month..
He lowered his head in shame again.
Wrr : New one ? You just got out, aren't you a busy bee.
P : Old sins, I was framed in that shit.
I stopped, turn to him, face to face, eye to eye β
Wrr : I just need 1 lie - Done.
Peter : I know what I did, and what I didn't.
After moment of scanning him β
Wrr : That's good, you gonna need that soon..
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Peter told me about his crimes, beating, alimony he didn't paid for few months, debts, and things he was framed in.
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Wrr : I see, new case is about alimony ?
Peter : Yes but, I'll also bring things I was framed in, it is the same judge in all of my cases.
I was thinking about everything he told me.
Wrr : What is the plan now ?
Peter : I don't know what to do. I'll go back to prison I think.
He was sipping beer every now and then β
" I don't know ! " he shouted
" Maybe I need to harm someone, steal his shit, and at least my debts will be paid off, my woman, and child will have a bit of money..
It do not matter if I die.. "
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I gave him one breath of space as he cooled down defeated.
Wrr : This is not Peter I remember, from many poisons to another - I pointed at beer.
You can tell it stung, his pride as a Man - Warrior.
He pauses, sips last time, makes a swing !
Wrr : Don't mess up my street. | Warrior said calmly. | Pointing him to trash can on corner.
Money Stink - Karmic Debt
Let's look at that choice Pete, You do what you've said, you get a bit of coin, just to sustain family for few days / weeks.
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Thing is, that coin have bad karmic debt.
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There is a saying in my country -
" Money don't stink. ''
Implying that, money is good not matter how you acquired them.
It is not true, you learn that on high level, most will never see, not even mentioning meeting person like that or, being that way.
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Imagine that what will follow, you do the act of taking away someones stored value - items -
You convert it to coin for your family.
System will find a way to restore value to previous owner or, more likely will find a way to take it away from your family and keep it.
Now you will probably rot in dungeon for 10 - 20 years, eliminating your chances at leading successful life as a man.
Your family on other hand, even if they would somehow keep dirty coin, will run out of it very fast, and they will not have you to protect, provide, teach them right ways as Man to your Woman, as a Father to your child.
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Lets take a more zoomed out look on that set of choices and their waves - All end badly for all of you. ALL.
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I encouraged him to take a blame for what he have done, take a lawyer to help prove his innocence where he was framed.
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You will not run your whole life Pete β
What do you mean, I can hide here, do that and you know go around..
β¦ From Yourself.
Pete : β¦
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It landed where it was supposed to.
Truth that he forgot existed.
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As I told him that, I've noticed 2 - 3 cars, passing us every few minutes, same brand, color of each, tailing us even when we were in secluded areas.
Wrr : Friends of yours Peter ?
Peter : β¦ When I left prison they were on me since then. Nobody believes me man, I sometime tell my father they are hiding in our garden trees, he tells me I am crazy.
Wrr : Paranoia is one thing, you have it because you feel like animal surrounded from all sides, in cage you've made for yourself.
It means you can release yourself from it as well Peter..
I can see your ''friends'' too, means you are not crazy.
Let's loose tail - So we did, 'they' couldn't keep up with us.
β¦
Dear reader, before I'll move to how I've helped Peter, giving him solution to all his problems,
I want to speak to you about something important β
You've been lied to.
System designed as corrupt business - Music and Justice Industry -
I want to bring to your attention dear reader - You have been lied to.
Where do you ask ?
About system you pay taxes to - extortion to.
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Turns out our taxes, that we pay for public prisons, prisoners in there do not get sufficient food.
Prison that Pete was in, forced him to fight to survive - I mean fight for food as well.
They are fed as follows : Morning one bun + one slice of ham or cheese.
Noon - one small piece of cheese.
Done
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First thing that came to my mind, what is prison warden doing with all money he gets for founding the facility from gov.
I think he should be looked at with sharp eye.
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How Pete survived few years behind bars ?
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Daily fights, daily exercise, taking food from weaker ones - not too much, because they will starve.
Eating what he have brought himself, for his money before he went in.
Dry provision in general.
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He also got a bit of food from head prison guard.
He have given him food because he saw Pete doing, thousands of repetitions of exercises every fucking day.
Willpower - Will to Survive - Will to not give up.
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He respected that, allowed him to build equipment to train on, placed on roof of the building.
Pete was often missing form his cell / block.
When that guard was looking for him, junkies / drunk prisoners told him - Pete is upstairs.
Guard had to have stone face because of his position but, inside we know how he viewed Pete dedication to forge himself into strong, good Man.
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Dear reader, it is not like you saw in movies.
Like you've been told by system.
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Some prisons have normal meals, allow transfer of packages with food from family.
Many don't.
Have you ever thought about that ?
Ahh cmon man, why would I !
I don't need to, only bad people go to prison - guilty ones.
β¦
-He looks at you in silence giving you time to understand-
'' Show me the man, I'll find him a crime. ''
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You think you are different from them ?
Let me tell you something that will bring you closer.
Do you know how pdfβs and adults interested, taking advantage of child are treated there ?
-Severe beating or death
Often same βactβ is applied to them, as they did to weaker ones.
Look, those βbadβ people have morals just like you, and me.
Choices | Hope | Agency
I was supposed to go on 2-3 km walk, 8th km in -
First two hours he was defeated, chaotic, didn't saw any hope..
3rd hour comes, after my words he, changes his speech.
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I tell him what needs to be done.
Take blame for what you've done.
Explain what you didn't.
Plead to judge so he will not put you in cell with junkies anymore -
Explain to him you want to change.
Put your trust in him.
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Then I proceed to explain to Peter how to print money, after he will return.
Giving value to people, receiving it back.
Creating multiple income streams.
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[I'll not go about it here, I speak about it on constant basis in notes etc.]
[If you need help - DM Me.]
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Peter : I thought about idea like this ! - He said bright.
Wrr : I know you would.. You are a smart man. [I've done that on purpose]
Sometime people need just a little push, just one person in world to believe in them, for a great change to take place.
Peter : You know what ? I was thinking about making yt channel showing people exercises, diet, how to live healthy..
Wrr : A-ha..[I am allowing him to spread wings, ideas]
Peter : I had plans to do charity marathon for sick and disabled kids.
To run 400 km in span of few days for them, all coin for them.
Wrr : That's a good idea Peter. Before we do all that, we need to fix - present -
What will you do to fix - past - in 30 days ?
He pauses, thinks about possibilities, you know what.. I could -
He explains what options he have, I correct, and move few things in it.
Peter : You know, that might work ! I'm telling you something is protecting me all this way.
Meeting you, and others who helped me on the way, even knowing what I've done.
Wrr : Is that so ?
Peter : Yes, you wouldn't believe what I saw on my path, small rays of hope, so I'll not give up.
Wrr : [I stay silent] β¦ Maybe you are right.
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I walk with Peter leading him to his hood, exchanging contacts, I wish him well, and tell him to give me report next day of what he have done.
Wrr : I'll not help you if, You will not be clean Peter.
Peter : I'm done! No more poison.
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I see him going to his place, now I have 10 km walk with vest to go back -
Deep in the night, I cover my tracks, making sure ' they ' didn't follow me.
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Next day brings few calls on my phone, I respond with message.
Call - '' You would not believe what happened Man ! "
Wrr : Do tell..
Peter explained how he got mail from other country.
In that mail, bank wanted to give his money back to him but, they could not get his contact.
It is from time he worked off border.
He was so happy, and I smiled ' Maybe someone is protecting you ' I thought.
Peter : You know what I can do now ?! I can..
Wrr : Stop - and listen.
I explained to him new chain of actions, most optimal, reasonable, fixing all his problems in 30 days.
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Plan was to go to the country he used to work, take money from that bank, close acc.
Flight to next country, where he have a friend and job set up.
He transfers part of money to family, lawyer, pays off half of debts, and leaves a bit to survive there 30 days.
[Food and shelter]
During 30 days, he pays off debt fully, pays second part to a lawyer, and earns money for his family safety.
Result
Before next court case will begin, he will have past fixed, family protected, debts paid.
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He was silent, struck by what I've said on phone -
Peter : This will work.. I can do this, everything will be.. great.
Wrr : Yeah - Is there something difficult to understand there ?
Peter : β¦ No, it is simple, and it will.. work.
Wrr : Yes [I smile] Go now.. Peter. You've got things to do.
Pets : Yes ! I'll buy ticket in a moment. I wanted to say..
Wrr : I don't want to hear from you this month, do the work, fix everything.
When you will be released from dungeon, you will contact me,
and I'll teach you how to lead life you've always meant to.
-GO-
I could sense tension, emotions on his side -
Peter : Alright, Moving out.
I hung up on him, threw phone on desk, and smiled.
Thing is, pain is essential for our evolutionary instincts alchemy.
Fear of pain, loss = death.
Pain is what activates our full physical and mental potential.
β WRR
We used to be the same, we fought like demons when we were teens.
We were forged into weapons, not on rare occasions standing on doors of clubs, dance places, with adults.
Our hearts pure, our visage killer machines in eyes of others.
Yet, only thing we had was good for people.
What happened then, you might ask ?
Choices
We separated, different cities, detached from home, beginning, can lead you astray.
I've made my choices, even in cold, on street, treated like animal - I would not give up honor.
-Warrior Code-
I would not allow poison, and noise in.
Peter made his choices, they accumulated to point of karmic break, you saw results.
We all make choices, day by day.
When did we become this sinking stones, when did we began to create those broken homes ?
I do not wash my or, Peter's sins - We both know what we have done in life, we paid it off.
I choose rebellion, from system that made many of my brothers ill, caged, despised, disrespected -
By design.
I choose iron will.
If you want to make a change, come with me.
If you want to make a change, pay attention to your choices -
Do they align with core values ? Are you honorable ?
I told Matt about what happened, my meeting with Peter on this fateful night.
I've given Matt 9 years of my life, pushing him, building him into Man he is today.
Matt smiled and told me -
"Don't fucking ever waste this gift you have, one day you'll beβ¦ β
But that is a tale for another time.
Do you see it now ?
Importance of choices, belief in yourself, understanding nature of people many will take advantage of you, lie, betray.
You need to understand it, assimilate it, your time, energy, chances are finite -
You cannot throw them away at unworthy people.
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Iβve heard our instinct, guts, wisdom is actually downloaded from DNA -
From our ancestors.
Thing is, our choices, re-write our DNA.
Our choices change our - Nature -
They matter.
I found that true.
I have changed -
You can too.
Thing is, You are great - You just don't know it yet.
You didnβt prove it to yourself.
Get up as I did. I wish You all the best.
β WRR
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This is an incredibly deep, raw and moving piece, Warrior!
Your story with Peter so vividly shows the immense weight of choices and their long-term impact on identity and life's trajectory. Even when external systems fail and life feels cruel, the individual's capacity for internal fortitude and the "iron will" you speak of remains the ultimate differentiator.
The contrast between your paths, despite similar backgrounds, underscores the idea that identity is forged. And navigating chaos requires a deeply rooted internal guiding compass.
Thank you for writing this!